Friday, April 7, 2023

State of the Blog

My last blogpost was in November, now five months ago, and I admit the wind has really gone out of my sails in terms of game design, adventure-making, and the like. In September of 2022, I was banned from several Discord channels where I spent most of my free time talking shop about RPGs and enjoying the fellowship of like-minded folks who shared my interests. This was in large part due to private conversations I undertook in good faith with various people whom I've come to trust over several years, who wanted to discuss weightier manners like worldview and personal conviction. To my disappointment, most of those conversations were not, in fact, prompted in good faith and their contents were shared with moderators and persons of interest who summarily rejected my belief system wholesale.

In short, I am a Bible-believing Christian.

I am not ashamed of the Gospel of Jesus Christ, nor his kingship, authority, and rule over life. Unsurprisingly, this worldview is neither vogue nor safe for the majority of my cohort in the RPG scene. God's rightful claim over man, his creation, is of no dispute here, but the commensurate worldview which encompasses that foundational reality is anathema to many, if not most, of my peers in this space. There are, in fact, two types of people in the world: those who claim "Thy will be done," and those who claim "My will be done." The first belong to Christ as regenerate sons and daughters of covenant promises which predate space and time, and are made manifest in pure ontology, or the matter of being. The second belong to the prevailing nuances of culture and ideology which reject God and demand personal autonomy above all other paradigms. Saint Paul notably remarks that spiritual rebellion is inherent in the hearts of all men and women, who are without excuse but strive to suppress the truth in unrighteousness.* 

I do not hold the transformational convictions I do because I claim any sort of spiritual superiority. In reality, I strictly do not hold myself as spiritually superior because I know it is not true. I am a wretch, a fool, and a beggar. But for the grace of God, I would perish. I am not a man who has floated in the world on difficult surf, somehow reaching out by my own merit to claim eternity for myself from some passive savior offering me a life ring over the next wave. More accurately, I am dead on the bottom of the ocean, availed of no hope in any means save for Christ, who has reached into the depths and resurrected me by his power and will, based on no deserving of my own.** It is for this conviction and truth that I was banned from NSR, Atelie Hwei, and several other locales previously. I do not regret this, but it is plain as fact that Christianity is patently absurd to those who do not claim it by unmerited grace in faith.***

The irony of the many summary claims that I am a bigot, unloving, hating, and filled with vitriol for those outside of my circle is not lost on me. Jesus Christ was slain by those he came to save, and like the thief on the cross next to him on the mount of the skull, it is only because the man on the center cross said I could come in, that I did. I do not care what you think of me. My "suffering" is milquetoast compared to the earnest martyrdom of the prevailing saints who came before me. I am undeserving of love, as are the rest of you. We have summarily abandoned God and his faithful promises through Adam, our representative head, so long ago. But the Lord is not a spiteful tyrant, and even before the dawn of time made a covenant with himself to redeem a lost people to his kingdom. That I can in any confidence be counted in that number is humbling and astounding, yet that is what scripture states is the case. 

My desire for this blog has always been to design for me and my tables first, and to preserve for posterity the contents therein for anyone else in the hobby who may benefit from reading what I am up to locally. That is, as I mentioned earlier, flagging. Rather than discourse and civil conversation, I have been rendered a pariah, not worth the time of anyone more enlightened than I in the circles of our hobby space. I challenge you all to consider that we are, by nature, deeply religious people. Our hearts were designed to worship, and worship we will without contest. The question is what object we worship. Is it Christ, our eternal redeemer, who took on flesh and lived in the mire of humanity to absolve us before a perfectly just and holy God, dying on our behalf to atone for death, the rightful wages of sin? Or is it the world, with its calls towards autonomy, self-preservation, grandstanding, and vacuous moral superiority? 

Cornelius Van Til, a man of much greater conviction and Dutch extraction than I, speaks clearly of the fervent, if futile, ambition we pursue when we seek after fulfillment and purpose apart from the redemption of Christ. “The unbeliever is like a man of water standing upon a ladder of water in an infinitely extended and bottomless ocean of water, against a wall of water, trying to climb out of the water."**** So hopeless and senseless, said Van Til, a picture must be drawn of the natural man's methodology based as it is upon the assumption that time or chance is ultimate. The man-of-water analogy shows the futility of all thought that is not anchored in God's self-attesting Word. In this and every season, we cannot pull ourselves from this water. As mentioned already, only Jesus Christ can drag us from our depths and breathe new life in our lungs. 

I have many ideas I would like to pursue on this blog, from continuing the long-lost expansion of my Android: Netrunner faction write-ups, the point-crawl adventure treatment of Hoarblight Keep from Gavin Norman's amazing Dolmenwood setting, additional oracles and procedures for Galaxy Far Away and general Star Wars content, and more. That said, the reaction of my person to those who otherwise enjoy the content I have created is disheartening--not surprising, mind you, given what I have already cited from Paul's letter to the Roman church. I love this hobby, and I love the people within it, but being silenced for my worldview, rather than engaging in meaningful and earnest conversation about it, is simply frustrating at best. I bear no ounce of ill will against those who decided I was better served in a dustbin than a public forum, and I pray, ardently and daily, for the redemption of their souls, not in vengeance, but in a sincere desire that they should know the same foundational salvation that I, the worst of sinners, enjoy because of Jesus Christ's sacrificial work on my behalf.

If nothing else, this is eight month's of catharsis to put pen to paper and let anyone following know why I have been less than thrilled about interacting with the hobby as such. 

Thanks for reading.

* Romans 1:18-22, English Standard Version.
** 1 John 4:13-21, ibid.
*** 1 Corinthians 1:18-25, ibid.
**** Van Til, Cornelius. Christian Apologetics. P & R Publishing, 2003. 


  1. I appreciate you sharing your heart and your faith here - and very well articulated! I don't engage much online, but I am a pastor who enjoys RPGs, and I appreciate you sharing your hobby and your faith here!

  2. Well said. We cannot choose the times we live in but only to decide what to do with the time that is given us. :)
    A month ago I watched your interview with Gary Snow and wondered if you were a believer. Now I know. I am recently new to the rpg scene, although I played AD&D in the early 80s. I was guessing from what I saw in rpg circles that a Christian viewpoint would not be acceptable among many rpg players, and now I know that was right too.
    My friend and I are mashing up some mechanisms for an rpg game that we want to use with youth and adults, in our church building. It would be great to share ideas with fellow believers. If you are open to the idea, please contact me at am.mcg at

  3. Treacherous even unto their founders and peers. I admire the strength of your conviction, and hope that in time, you will be able to enjoy your hobby in the company of like-minded people once again.

  4. Hey man, not a regular reader but a friend linked me to this post. Don't give up, but - and I say this with the friendliest intent I can: do smarten up. The rats are everywhere these days, as you've no doubt learned. There *are* cool gamers of actual good will out here though - you just have to find them, and here's hoping you will. Fight on!

  5. Just want to say that I found your blog by chance because of a post you made on factions, and then I found this post since it's the top of your post. I'm also a believing and practising Christians, you're not alone! It's too bad what happened to you. Great blog in all cases!

  6. Bless you brother. Glorious stuff here. Keep on trucking.

  7. Really sorry to hear that Jim, sounds awful, I hope you are able to find some healing.

    I appreciated your contributions on the Discord (and the game of DCO you ran). I also want to say that Weird North has become my go-to ruleset lately, I love it.

  8. I was also banned from the Leftist FKR (I was just there for the FKR, not for the politics) and I am assuming some of the same leftist fascist also banned me from the NSR. You didn't loose anything by being banned.

  9. Hi Jim, I'm on the Necrotic Gnome discord, as are you, and I always enjoy your insights there. I am also a Christian, although I have to admit to being backslidden in that I do not regularly worship, and my sins are manifold. However, I have never, and never will deny Jesus Christ as my saviour. My upbringing in his church, and his teachings and love made me the empathic and forgiving person that I am today.
    Take strength in the fact that you have been abused and shunned in the name of upholding the Lord's faith. Jesus was abused and shunned too.
    Also, take strength in the fact that there are people of like mind, and of like interest in TTRPGs and the OSR that enjoy reading about your thoughts and experiences in our beloved game.
    Keep going. Keep posting. Keep believing.

  10. Hi Jim, just wanted to say I have run into the same issues with Discords. It's very sad indeed that we cannot enjoy sharing the same spaces for love of the hobby, and enjoy those differences that are outside the hobby in a positive way.
    More importantly, bless you brother for sharing the gospel in such a clear and loving way. I pray that many read this message and that through it they are led to Jesus.
    Keep bringing the Lord into our hobby, it is his too!
    With love in Christ,